who would've guessed that work (or to be more precise, the lack of work) could make me so frustrated and depressed?
before i started working, my friends all told me to start writing a blog like "daisy-lancashire", detailing everything i encounter as a trainee. ironically, the ONLY ibanker that i've ever met since i started working is HELEN CHU WHOM I HAVE LUNCH WITH, and my only contribution to my firm so far seems to be that i occupy some office space and some electricity
the only moment that i could feel that i actually do have a job is when i spend my salary---I spend, therefore I am, how true haha!!!???
You may have never seen someone who is unable to enjoy some free time at work, but trust me, when you could read every single piece of news on Apple Daily online or you could re-read the whole Yik Su Collection while at work, you'll feel like a piece of useless crap like I do right now
to be exact﹐如果說的是買小禮物製造無限驚喜的話﹐我從未浪漫過。我說的是我似乎失去了對真愛的渴求。係你無聽錯﹐老掉牙的老土真愛。
當所有朋友們跟我說wall-e怎樣怎樣浪漫感動﹐當然我知他們refer to的是邊D位﹐只是那些位已沒有觸動到我。曾幾何時﹐看見wall-e怎樣細膽求愛﹐又想博矇拖eve隻手仔﹐又怕得撞牆兼俾手推車群撞﹐兼有la vie en rose playing at the background﹐我是應該會甜笑的。但那天我沒有。la vie en rose 在播之際﹐我身旁的人說“救命﹐E首老土歌﹗”我很泄氣。真的。OK﹐首歌係舊﹐0甘點呀﹖使唔使拿去打靶呀﹖
耳濡目染之下﹐原來我已相信promises are meant to be broken 那些absolute bullshit, 並開始覺得 fidelity means nothing to most of the people on this planet...其實我信的東西開始受動搖﹐是我從看Forgetting Sarah Marshall的那天便發現的。只是﹐半年之後﹐我病情惡化得緊要。
戲中女主角搭上sex-craved rock star﹐究竟她應該覺得有幾insecured﹖being with someone who doesn't believe in monogamous relationships, 究竟需要甚麼能耐???
他還與你一起﹐還未搞上第二個﹐純粹﹐係純粹因為﹕想偷食但太細膽/未遇到想與之偷食之人。just how fucked up it is for someone to believe in (i am quoting the movie here) "putting his dxck into whoever, whenver, and whereever"? 曾經我覺得完全令人心寒髮指的事﹐現今竟令我覺得﹐或許世事真的如此這般﹐或許世界上﹐包括你身邊最親密的人﹐有一天都會作如斯想法。
其實我覺得戲中最令人心寒的是﹕為何這個PK會不介意女友知道自己有這個想法的﹖邪念﹐很多人都有﹐但使唔使下下宣之於口先﹖可唔可以decent少少﹐唔好與伴侶分享你D邪念先﹖甲有六舊腹肌迷人笑容﹐乙有36-24-36﹐這是大家肉眼都看得見的事實。how one chooses to deal with these 眼看得見的事實 is what matters...
seriously, honesty is overrated in a relationship---李嘉欣索過我你唔使話俾我聽...又橫掂 if you believe in love at first sight, you never stop looking anyway...but since that we are still together, 就讓我們搞得好好睇睇。ha, 我似乎從wall-e已經扯到很遠很遠
給我曾經相信但現以不敢再信/太信的一切(雖然我起碼還在堅持喜歡la vie en rose這首歌)﹕
one thing leads to another, 我續想到自己臨終前有乜一定要做又或葬禮有乜安排(都話我癲0左)。最俗套的是﹐因為怕死的關係﹐我一起身已經聽了兩次活著多好---這作為funeral song未免太行--D荷理活電影通常都鐘意用D輕快歌 (e.g. American Pie)﹐等參加葬禮者又喊又笑。如果是Edith Piaf的La Vie en Rose會唔會核突呢﹖雖然﹐我個vie點都唔似係粉紅色。我諗視乎我過身時的戀愛狀態---分分鐘需要你都未嘗不是個好選擇(雖然同人死完全無關)。
好﹐到臨終遺願----實在難諗﹐邊有23歲會覺得自己就死嫁嗟。你一定聽過親戚之類去世﹐只是﹐當你連工都未開﹐死亡﹐似乎遙遠。Mau時常問我如果24小時後就世界末日我會點算。不外乎同屋企人食下天香樓D東坡肉﹐同喜歡的人靜靜地過下law。遺願卻似乎是另一回事。講真﹐從前喜歡過的人﹐我一個都唔想見。他們帶給過我的﹐不是我主觀﹐實不比我現在擁有的多。有地方要遊覽嗎﹖冰島Morocco Cuba統統不錯﹐只是﹐可悲又或可幸地﹐原來我必做必去的事或地點---是零。我只希望我的生命長得足夠我去找那些“絕對”的人和事﹐好讓我下次寫bucket list時可以填得滿滿。寫到E度我依舊怕死﹐但想起On the radio的歌詞---"but everyone must breathe until their dying breath"...同埋我知如果我唔返返去讀international finance﹐真係唔夠24小時就世界末日
最初風平浪靜(見上圖)﹐點知後來our punt got stuck somewhere, and when I tried to hold onto some plants to 借力﹐那條死人毒草的刺就從今陷入我這左手﹐我隻手痲痺了一整日。之後終於Keanu Reeves來拯救我們---
我用我的右手﹐好似鐵鉤船長般死命捉住Keanu Reeves隻小船so that we could get un-stuck﹐隻手無斷同個人無跌落水((全靠後面的Sally死捉住我隻腳)真係還得神落。隻船仔有幾細我地隻船幾大呀﹐要我一個人徒手扯住﹐班友仔正發癲。我而家左手有毒刺﹐右手腫到七彩﹐問你死未。
同晚回歸市區﹐遇上倫敦史上最後一日when its legitimate to drink alcohol on public transport...全城癲佬同在地鐵狂歡﹐我親身目睹癲人們將所有地鐵廣告扯下/不停爆樽/隨處小便/在地鐵車箱煲煙。最後車站封閉﹐大批警察調停並拘捕有關人等 -_-
臨近收筆﹐我正式宣佈我從今已後不再是Miranda了。我想做Samantha。或許, 愛情誠可貴﹐自由價更高呀......明白自己是誰﹐明白人需要望向鏡內清楚自己就是自己(我老土到呢)﹐才是真正的幸福。看完電影最大感觸恐怕是----事隔四年﹐那四位主角老到呢...幾多粉幾多燈光都遮唔到...雖則他們繼續為男人煩繼續間屋愈住愈大繼續unrealistically地買靚衫﹐不是那回事了。從前他們雖則極度膚淺卻仍算獨立﹐如今卻個個被一層層Hollywood典型糖衣coat住...感覺上Miranda is not cynical but plain sad...結論﹕套戲ruined了套劇在我心目中的地位了。諗起Jennifer Hudson個老土到癲的plot﹐膩到想嘔。
IF I was/am in Hong Kong, the following things would've happened...
a.) my list of HKIFF movies---
1.) Shall we Kiss? (吻下來，豁出去) (French rom-com with hot hot Virginie Ledoyen, need I say more?)
2.) Once (have watched and talked about it here already but I had trouble understanding the Irish accent---this movie is said to be subtitled when shown in USA -_- ---so I don't mind watching it again...but seriously hate its post-Oscars hype...it's never gonna be what it used to be again)
3.) The Counterfeiters (best foreign movie@ Oscars lor...)
4.) Angel (I love the early Francois Ozon so much...then he gets boring, let's see if he can get back to his old self with this...coz' this film's use of colour reminds me of 8 femmes....)
5.) Before the Devil Knows You're Dead (directed by Sidney Lumet, the director of 12 Angry Men wor...and Ethan Hawke and Philip Seymour Hoffman are Albert Finney are in it!)
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